It has been a week since I was allegedly mobbed by the Ray White staff andallegedly mauled by the fire dudes. The hospital did their best to find the damage and looked for most of the night. It is strange but all of the bony and tendon damage I have apart from the grievous wounds received in the MVA had to be discovered by other methods than x-rays. The x-rays showed nothing. I suspect that has happened again.

The pain is outrageous. I am unable to get a whole breath as I cannot stand the pain of rib expansion. There have been one or two sneezes that have crushed me to the ground because of the pain and that is even more painful as getting to and from my feet is evilly painful. There is only one sleeping position I can manage and that is upright with a bevy of pillows. If the pillows are not exactly right they force my ribs and spine to change position and make it impossible to sleep. You will probably know how impossible it it is to get a big pile of pillows to accept that much control over the way they fall and the way the padding pumps up.  There is no pain-free position at all and after a week of being battered by pain, and with already extensive disabilities. It is impossible to sleep more than an hour or two at a time as eventually the body moves in sleep and I am thrust awake by agony!

The fact that there seems to be no way to document the injuries apart from the agony in my face and body language is frustrating and a bit unfair. How long ago was it the doctor told me my kidneys were failing and my heart muscle largely destroyed? Not much more than weeks. Just to get as much as possible out of this miserable whinge I am surrounded by pain anyway. Both of my shoulders are damaged and the left is almost useless. The left arm and elbow and wrist have been crushed and apart from useless are radiating pain constantly. The right hand has many crushed bones from the days I was employed and martial arts and it also rarely stops being a pain radiator. There are severe damage sites all up and down my spine with crushed and cracked vertebrae in several places. The worst is the neck which radiates enough pain to cause big headaches when it gets tired. The hip and pelvis were crushed and are improperly healed meaning there is pain delivered by sitting, standing and walking! Let me repeat. TWO firemen (allegedly) smashed me to the ground and body slammed me several times as well as wrenching my arms and shoulders as far back as they could manage. You know, like in the American Police shows! The left leg is a crushed and twisted relic of what it was long ago and the knee has no meniscus or other structure at all. It is cruelly painful on a good day.  I feel like making this big post of self pity. No matter what those lovely, kind and respectful fireman saw or thought they saw they (allegedly) assaulted me. And what they saw was me defending myself from a number of people who had surrounded me and were slowly and allegedly raising their attack levels. I Do not doubt that this place is hell pretending to be Budgewoi!