I think this image is not good enough. If you knew anything about building you might look at the position of the window, and the size of the shower recess and the height of the ceiling and wonder just how the guy will go about making shower railings that work in THAT!

It was 3am when I awoke this morning. Too ill to go back to sleep and warped with pain. There have been four cups of coffee since 5am and it is seven now. It is the pain. There is no way to escape it so the act of drinking coffee brings some relief for my mind. The cups warm the pain in my hands and I rub them on my temples and against my neck. I need to drug myself back to sleep but there is a guy this morning. The estate agents have sent a guy over to look at putting up shower curtain railings and quoting on fixing the tiles. I use the term “looking at” because in the usual manner of their ilk the estate agents have not asked the tenant if there are any special problems with the situation and so have not briefed their guy. There are special problems and I will interested to see how this guy gets around them using the equipment he brings under the belief he is approaching a normal job. I would make a small bet on him being able to get no further than looking at the problem or “jerry-rigging” some inappropriate second rate set up.

All those cups of coffee plus a huge breakfast have not gone well with diabetes and my mouth feels like it has been stuffed with dry cotton swabs. I have a headache although I think that is a result of closing up the house to run a heater last night. It hurts to hold my head up and my neck and my back and all of it. I wish there some way to get a doctor to medicate me for things I have rather than the appropriate and safe response in this political climate. Yes, that is often how they medicate!

There is a legal appointment with our legal and community services team today. I am too sick! I might just wander up there in my pyjamas and slippers rather than face all the trouble of showering and ironing and sorting files and making digital copies and using video editing software because the legal eagles are ten years behind their children and will not make an effort. I wish my evidence would present itself. The fact is that no matter how good my case if I am too ill to present it the whole evil circus will just suck up my money and roll over me. How many fragile and vulnerable people are destroyed as a matter of daily routine by this system? The mind boggles!

Anyway none of us can be surprised by the viciousness of our supposed minders of the safety nets. We, the poor, are being smashed against the rocks of despair or face it just in the routine supply of our essential services. So nobody gives a shit. Keep sitting on your hands until its your turn and the failing structure becomes justified in taking your things. You are an idiot. The government, the church, the legal system, anything you think of that was ever supposed to be in place for your protection has long since ceased to be for that. One day you will pull your finger out of your arse and find it is all wrinkly. It will not even be strong enough to stand up as your representative in an act of outrage when you want to give them the bird.. Am I ranting? I feel so ill. I was just trying to keep my head from coming back into this world and being sick some more,

This is ridiculous, I can barely sit up and it took ages to get across the room to the computer. I will email everyone and see if someone will call the solicitors and ADSSI for me and postpone today