Wow, I just opened up a screen on a game on the computer and when I looked again it had downloaded a whole patch file. How long does that take, ten minutes, half an hour. I am not tired so much as scoured like the inside of my carcass has been scrubbed with a wire brush especially my eye-lids. I must have just slipped into sleep. Glad I am not using any machinery right now.

With the scooter off the road I had to walk up the street. that meant a long walk in the built up shoes. very slow and steady is not too painful although it will be painful tomorrow. Had coffee with Dave by the Bakery for about an hour. That was pleasant. Lots of people say hello and chat. That is one of those things I enjoy a lot and which costs nothing.Damn I have to go back, I dont think I paid them. Oh, that is not good.

Wandered around to the newsagent to check the status of the lottery ticket. That was even slower, sitting all that time made the joints hard to work. There are lots of people like that around here. You will see us almost sailing along the pavement as though deep in thought and making slow steps when most of us are compensating for some illnes or other thing. We are not unhappy or anything, just focussed. There was no lottery win so I had to get another ticket. The Marine Rescue had a raffle and charity stall up the street. I always get a couple for those unless I have no cash at all. I am not trying to win their prize, just giving a little out of gratitude for their good work. I have often wondered what I would do I won the little tinny they have as a prize. I thought maybe I would return it so they could do another raffle.

Craig from the Scooter and bike shop rang about the size of the stuff that needs replacing on the machine. Very relieved about that. If I lose the place over the weekend and end up on the street  I will be just stuck sitting on the ground with no way to go anywhere for the whole weekend if I do not have the scooter. I have no idea where I will get the strength to pack stuff. I can barely stand at the moment. Talking to myself as well. I do that all the time but now I am running down in mid sentence.

I still have to head over the bridge to see Rodger. I am all scattered I guess. Half finished thoughts and processes everywhere. I feel emotionally scarred